Some random thoughts

Today I'm feeling particularly insightful...partially because a friend came over and we talked for a few hours - not just small talk -this is a friend I can really talk to. So we talked and that gets my mind going....
I thought of how I blogged yesterday about having a hard time with Gavin...and I thought that I am so lucky...don't get me wrong - there are going to be frustrating times, and its ok to voice them...but I'm just thinking about other things. Like the mom mourning the loss of her 2 1/2 year old...or the mom I spent time with yesterday who's son is autistic...he's 3 and he says just a handful of words. She has a very difficult life. Expensive, lack of government support, treatments that are considered unnecessary and fears of autism for her newborn son. Puts things into perspective for me.
I think of all the time I spend thinking about my body -that is changing for an amazing reason - I'm so thankful to be able to carry a child...but in my mind, I complain all the time about the changes. I voice them rarely - sometimes just to Jason...or a handful of others. But I went to the Dr. today and our baby is perfect so far...everything is fine. I think of all those women unable to bear children, who would be dying for the reason to see their bodies change. Again - puts things into perspective for me.
I want my kids to have eyes for others and a love for the world like Jesus does. How are they going to learn that if I don't?? All this time thinking about myself takes away from others I could be thinking about, praying for, and serving.