Warning: Major Whiny Post Below

I hate registry.
Has my stress level decreased, as I said it would?? A million times NO!!!!!! How do I explain all the things I hate about it?? I'll try.
I hate not knowing if I'm going to work on the days I want to. Lately, there has been very little work through my registry and I spoke to a larger company today and was told it is the same across the board. Census is low in hospitals right now so registry nurses are not getting much work. Staff members are not using sick time or vacation time and hospitals are adding incentives to get their staff to pick up extra shifts instead of getting a registry RN which costs them MUCH more. This week I have yet to work. I have been "available" 4 days and nothing. I was supposed to work in Laguna Beach tomorrow but was told tonight they got one of their own staff to cover it. So I am left to hope there are sick calls at another hospital and am able to work tomorrow. If not, that is another week without a paycheck. That also means that I will get woken by a phone call from the registry at 4:45am telling me whether I'm going to work or no phone call if I'm not going to work. Lately, I have been waking up at 4:30am waiting for the call, then staying awake for an hour or more, even if there was no phone call. Anxiety! Stress!
I have been thinking all along how great it is that Jason and I are both in professions that don't' really fluctuate with the economy. Yeah right.
When I have happened to get a shift, the attitude toward me is HORRIBLE. People expect you to be lazy, lame, awful and unskilled. You don't know where anything is, and most people don't care enough to show you or are so busy themselves, they don't have time. I hate that nobody wants to talk to me or is interested in me. That's a part of enjoying work - having relationships with people in your workplace.
I hate that I am so low on the totum pole, I was there for NINE hours without so much as a 5 min break. Last week I ate breakfast at home, got to work at noon and didn't eat again until 9:30pm. They knew I hadn't eaten, but it was so busy there was no one to cover my patients so I just had to wait.
Jason and I had decided that I was going to wait until after the holidays to decide whether this is going to work for us. But as I have thought about it, I have realized that isn't going to work - if I work as little as I have been, we are going to burn through money that we have for other things. Plus, if I hate it, why continue?? So...
All that to say - I called my old boss at UCI today and asked if he still had a per diem day shift position available. He does...so I did the application today and am going to hopefully get rehired in the near future- once I jump through all the HR hoops, etc. Even though I've only been gone 5 weeks, I have to go through everything as if I've been gone 5 years. I didn't realize how good I had it...until it was gone!