Nesting

I laughed when, pregnant with Gavin, I was obsessively reading pregnancy and parenting magazines and learned about "nesting." I had big doubts I would ever experience that. Surprise, surprise!
I can't remember the specifics of my "nesting" with my previous pregnancies...but I have "to do" lists I have saved from the end of each of those pregnancies. With this baby, I have literally done nothing to prepare (except perhaps emotionally). Lying in bed a few weeks ago, I started to panic slightly. My mom encouraged me to make a list, which I did. On that list are things which I could have cared less about 2 months ago. Why does it matter if the cupboards in the hall are organized? I don't know. I just have to do it.
Today I went to Target and bought several things I have been telling Jason I need...newborn diapers, nursing pads, toiletries for the hospital...yes, they were necessary TODAY! Not that I need them today, but I will have everything organized mentally so I don't have to be anxious about when I am going to get them. Does that make sense?
I keep thinking I need to pack my bag for the hospital. Why? I don't know. Because when I am in labor, its not like I'm going to experience the first contraction and have to speed to the hospital! I'll probably have a whole day to "enjoy" contractions and wish I had something productive to do....like pack my bag. Oh well. If this organizing and pre-planning helps relieve some anxiety, thats what I'll do.
Jason asked me(with a baffled look on his face) what I was doing this afternoon when I got home from Target and was sitting at the table surrounded by scrapbooking materials. "I'm finishing Ezekiel's baby book"....which I actually started today too. My goal was to finish it before this baby comes and it quite possibly would have been a better decision to start this project sooner, but I still have a month...plenty of time!